wow..is i really thanksgiving tomorrow???

So yet again i haven't written in awhile..sometimes too tired just go to bed.
I have hit the 20 pound mark and still hanging around that..i have ofcourse been cheating here and there...so i understand why. I am going to try the Zumba class on Saturday...either it will be packed or not so packed cause of the holiday. It looks like fun they show a little bit of it on video on the web page.
Not off from the part time tomorrow night so i have to go in at 5 which sucks but whatever..i will spend some time over my moms.

i am back

haven't written in awhile...have been mega busy...so i finally lost the extra weight that i gained from that disasterous week of downfall...hanging at 19 pounds so far...and some people at the part time have noticed so that feels nice.
every once and awhile i cheat but that's to be expected ...but not major like i used to do before.
so hoping to go to the gym tomorrow...need some rest so will see what time i get there.

anyway...off to bed now.

back on track

well this week has been better eating wise...even though with all that i gained back 5 pounds. So hopefully by next week i will have lost those 5 pounds, it's a little tiring preparing everything...it's alot of work to eat healthy!!!

i did a class last week and let me tell u the next 2 days after that man did i feel the muscles in my stomach....so i will definately take that class again on friday.
saturday i will try and sleep a little later...and then monday off early to go..then sleep later on tuesday.

still bad ..bad...bad

just not a good diet week at all...I think i have just reserved the fact that I will start all over again on Sunday.
Even though i am going to go work out tonight...don't feel like it..have no energy.
Probably from all the crap I have eaten this week...I think I gained back about 4 pounds.
I MUST BE BETTER next week..

UGH....

bad...bad..bad

Not doing good with the dieting this week...went out to lunch yesterday and had pasta and dessert....had a hot dog and some fries today..and an ice cream sandwich...arrg
And now tomorrow the accounts come in and they bring in DD and we have Pizza for lunch.
Then Saturday parents day at the school and that's BBQ stuff...back on the diet on Sunday I suppose...going to the gym on Friday to work off all this stuff....can't go saturday and then can't go monday cause i have to work the full time.
The following week however I will have off monday and tues. So I will be able to work out friday , saturday , monday and tues. SO ....hopefully i can lose or just re coupe all the crap i have been eating!!! UGH

keep on going

back from workout...showered and resting to go to work at the part time tonight.
arrrg..next week will only be able to work out on friday...saturday is parents day at stonybrook
then i have to work on monday. but the following week i will be able to work out 4 times instead of 3.
i think that saturday i will try that zumba class...looks like fun.

anyway..gotta go put my make up on. laterz

the elliptical----the enemy..

Did my work out...felt good...that elliptical machine is going to be the thing that i will beat!
I was able to stay on it 15 minutes..i am shooting for a half hour.

It was funny cause they play really good music at the place...so while i am on the treadmill "boom boom pow" comes on...and i can feel my hips wanting to dance..had to stay focused and keep walking..LOL...i don't think the lady next to me appreciated me singing to the music...WHATEVER!...lol

seems to be working

So i have been sticking to the eating well and exercising...and so far since i started a little over a month ago I have lost a total of 17 pounds so far. This week I cut out the processed food and I am eating chicken and tuna ..salads and vegtables. So I am feeling really good about that. I am going to the gym tonight tomorrow and monday! yay...i actually do like going to the gym.
I just wish I had more time to do it like 5 times a week but what can you do we need the extra cash. I need to win lotto really badly.

feelin' good

i have to say...i feel really awesome! my energy level is great...not tired out of the usual..i can see that i am walking with much better posture than before and i am not having trouble falling asleep like before. And i have not cheated at all...and i am surrounded by a ton of candy a day..also helps that i have no money to buy it anyway...LOL

going good so far

So I went to the gym yesterday...went well even though this one lady took the treadmill that i was going to go on...but whatever there is enough to switch...i also did some arm stuff..my friend from the part time is coming with me on friday night which should be alot of fun. I really do feel it working..my pants feel looser and i feel it too...which is good...so far it's 6 pounds...which i am happy with..if i can lose 10 pounds a month (2 pounds a week) then this should be good...30 pounds by dec...i can live with that.

You really can get obessed with this whole health thing...i found myself watching the fit tv channel yesterday and loving it gathering more information and knowledge. And doing "shimmy" which i find alot of fun...guess cause it has to do with dancing.
It's a good thing to be a fitness geek now...other than my usual "candy junky".

LOL...more to come.

going towards the positive

so i went to lucille roberts on thursday...which was nutty because i was back and forth all night. first registering..which everyone was really nice. then i had to go get my lock from my locker at the store and then walk back and then go for orientation to learn how to use the machines. they only do the orientations on thursdays so i decided and by that weird quirk of fate i was off that thursday i just did everything.
so i went on saturday and it was nice did my own thing ...so i feel this will work out well.
i watched what i ate over the weekend so ...and i am going to be getting away from the frozen stuff and eating fresh stuff. so u know who is excited that he is seeing me eat healthy. thats good so he has been encouring me so thats nice for a change.

going to go tomorrow..will wake up a little later to give myself some rest...but if i don't get off here that will defeat the purpose..so anyway...done for the night.

new plan of action

I am a complete loon..I know..ok..so my co-worker at the part time was telling me about lucille roberts. So i checked on the website and i liked what it said and what classes they have. I think this will be a better option for me. I think i will feel much more comfortable especially since it will be all women. They have a Zumba class which I hear is cool . So I go talk to them tomorrow night after work. I am off from the part time, so I will go then. Then I think after that I will go to the supermarket and get the stuff to make the soup on Saturday, I am in a soup mood. Hopefully maybe I can start on Saturday??? We shall see.

made up my mind

so i have decided not to go back to the gym...cause i just couldn't shake off what happened. I don't need to pay to have someone yell at me or talk back to me I can get that at home for free. LOL

I am going to continue to watch what I eat and go walking on saturday and mondays . I enjoyed walking in the park anyway. I am a loner, and all that was out of my comfort zone and I felt really uncomfortable yesterday. And my fried that i work with said i shouldn't have to be treated like that. If he was busy he shouldn't schedule so many people at once. It's chaotic.
So that's it I am done. Moving on

not feeling so good today

so i am not feeling so good about myself today....i got yelled at sorta at the gym...he kinda pissed me off cause i don't know what the hell he was doing . he didn't explain anything so how the fuck am i supposed to know where to go what to do. whatever. i guess he sometimes has to be brash to get u to your goal...i am probably going to do this for the 3 months before we go away and that's it...once i can get down to a smaller weight i know i can maintain...i don't know guess i am in just a bad mood.blah
i will just add him onto the list of people who yell at me.

i will get over it though. i go back again on thursday.

today is the day

I am going to the gym tonight...ok so i think i figured this blog will be about the losing weight. which is good to write stuff down somewhere. I am excited..but i am so tired today

The new me

So I have decided to finally go to the gym and get a trainer and workout.
I am going to start this friday which is Oct 1st...I like starting off on the first of the month so at least I know where I am at from beginning to end. I am excited! I am going to go to my friend named Jay , who is a life coach. I met him at the store and I have to believe that this man came into my life for a reason and this time it is going to work.
Since I work all the time its hard for me to fit in working out, but I have to do it! So I will go on Fridays..Saturdays and the Monday that I am off from the full time.
I am going to go set it up today on lunch so that I can start this week.
No more cheating with eating and keep drinking my water...this time it's going to happen I feel it in my bones...and i will be feeling my bones after this friday for sure!! LOL

Random Stuff

So I am going to try and figure this out...guess it will be more like a journal...but a journal the whole world can read....Arrrrrgh...maybe i want to think about this.
Any way my blogs will be random and probably go all over the place from one subject to another but that's me!....just me...LOL